Getting it together

It's been 1 week since I started jazzercise and my blogging journey! I wish I could say I have done well and lost weight but unfortunately I cannot.

I was able to attend 2 jazzercise classes last week. Tuesday nights class did me in!! I woke up Wednesday unable to move ANY part of my body. I was used to having sore muscles from working out at the gym but this was different. It was a WHOLE body ache. It's a good thing...it means that whatever I was doing was working but I was SOOOO not prepared for the achiness! I missed Thursday nights class because of the soreness. I'm READY to see what Monday night will bring!

I've been using my fitness pal to log my food everyday. It does work if you track EVERYTHING you put in your mouth! This is what I struggle with most. FOOD....it's everywhere and let's face it you need it  in order to survive. I do fine throughout the day but it's at night that I lose all control. I have no idea why I do this to myself. It could be from the stress of the day, boredom, self-sabotage. I don't know, all I know is that I have to figure out a way or something to occupy my time when I get that way. That overwhelming ravenous feeling that I have to have something and I don't care what it is I just need it NOW!!! UGH....then I end up hating myself afterwards. Why can't I just get rid of this habit? I WORKED so hard to lose those 30lbs and now I'm just right back where I started....WHY, WHY, WHY????? Am I having a pity party for myself...sort of! I know it's my fault and no one else's so it's not like I can point the blame onto someone else. I think that is what stinks the most... that it's MY fault.

We have an upcoming trip planned in a few weeks and honestly I am terrified. I'm afraid my seat belt on the plane wont buckle. I know this is petty but it's a real fear of mine. I'm 33 yrs old....I don't want to have to ask for a seat belt extension!! Why am I telling you all this....because I feel like if it's out there for everyone to read maybe I will (no pun intended) buckle down and get it ALL together this week....both exercise and my nutrition! I have to keep telling myself.....................YOU are WORTH IT...YOU ARE WORTH IT!!!!

Till next time,

Be Blessed

April